Its been eleven years. Eleven years since I wrapped my car around a cement pole in an accident that should have ended my life. Eleven years since I ignored a spiritual prompting that would have helped me avoid getting into that accident in the first place. Eleven years since the Lord spared me anyway from the consequences of my own dumb mistakes.
In that time I’ve graduated from high school, undergrad and law school. I served a mission. Met and married the girl of my dreams. And had a son.
In that time, I have lived in seventeen houses in two countries and four states. I have visited Uruguay, Brazil, Argentina, the UK, Israel, Austria, Jordan, Saudi Arabia, Germany, Canada, Mexico, and the Bahamas. I have worked as door-to-door salesman, a telemarketer, a librarian, a research assistant, and a law clerk.
In that time, I have been blessed with trials that have stretched me and refined me. I lost a tooth in Uruguay after being attacked by a local drunk. I had my heart broken by a couple of girls I dated. My wife and I grappled with the pain of being unable to have children for five years after we were married. I struggled to find a landing spot for after graduation. I even coped through a crisis of faith.
Eleven years that I didn’t deserve. Eleven years that I can never pay back.
He has been with me each step of the way, and today as I look down at my son, I find myself overwhelmed at the Lord’s mercy and love towards me.
I am grateful that he spared my life eleven years ago, even though I did not listen to him that day. I am grateful that that experience has made me more sensitive to the Lord’s voice, and enabled me to be protected in other sticky situations I’ve found myself in over the last decade.
I am grateful that the Lord brought Kindra into my life, and through the atonement of his Son, has provided a way for us to be sealed for eternity. I love her more today than when I married her, and we continue to discover ways in which the two of us are uniquely compatible . . . compatible in a way that I never imagined possible.
I am grateful for my son. I did not know that I could love someone as strongly and as instantaneously as I do him. The experience of fatherhood has radically altered my understanding of my relationship with my Father in Heaven. I understand why he loves me. I am his son. That is enough.
I am grateful that the Lord protected my wife and child during delivery. Jack came suddenly, and there was about an hour and a half that I was not sure if he (or Kindra) was going to make it. I am grateful for the friends and family who prayed for me during that moment.
I am grateful for my parents and siblings. They are right now all together in North Carolina, and I am here in Louisiana. I miss them and their goodness. Their faith. I am grateful for the many lessons they have taught me throughout my life: the importance of listening to the Spirit, the reality of prayer, the virtue of making fun of yourself. I am grateful for the sacrifices they made to raise me—the fact that my dad was willing to get on a plane every week to prevent me from having to move while I was in high school.
I am grateful for the teachers and mentors that the Lord has sprinkled throughout my life: Nate Wheatley, my old scoutmaster and seminary teacher; Tom Gwynn, my old Sunday School teacher; Jonathan Austin, my old EFY session director; Jay Condie, my old YSA bishop and stake president member; Matt Gray, my institute teacher, TA, and college professor; Gordon Smith, my law professor who taught me a lot more than just contracts; Presidente y Hermana Peterson, my mission president and mission mom; President Hedquist and President Stamps, the temple presidency in Detroit; President Medley, our stake president in Detroit; Carlos Junca, my branch president in Detroit. That’s an abbreviated list, and there are many more people who have deeply impacted my life, faith, and thinking.
I am grateful for my friends—old and new—and that the joy that they bring into my life.
I am grateful for Church callings and the ability to serve.
I am grateful for missions—my own as well as those of the missionaries serving here in Louisiana and in Detroit. Their faith strengthens my own, and spending time with them reminds me of my best self.
I am grateful for temples and the fact that no matter what negative emotion I may be feeling when I arrive, it is immediately diminished the second I cross the threshold.
I am grateful to have another year to grow as a father, as a husband, and as a disciple of Christ. Each of the last three years have been incredibly different, and I look forward to seeing what the coming year has in store.